Reflective Essay
I have always tried to be somewhat of a soft spoken personality, not too hard headed and not too laid back. I have achieved in a way what I’ve wanted although I can be very opinionated some times and I can also be very shy and okay with everything. Both have downsides but let’s not talk about that. I’m not going to lie, I’m not very positive, I try to stay more positive for my friends and family but honestly I’m clinging on to motivation for dear life. I have had many struggles that’s forced me to be responsible for myself personally, academically I've tried my best to stay on my responsibilities. Over the years I have understood more about what it means to be responsible and now understand it much better. Though I stated that I have motivation issues occasionally I pull through every time and get what I need done. A useful skill. I’ve always thought of myself as a nice person. Although I have had trouble getting along with people in the past, I have moved on and I try to please as many people as possible while still making sure that my needs are met as well. I've always tried to take the leader role in my groups mainly being I trust myself more than anyone else, unless a close friend. Otherwise I consider myself easy to work with and when I know other peoples grades are at risk I am more than happy to do my work fast to help others. I think that I am in fact trustworthy when it comes to my peers, not the most but I can find my way. I value people greatly I want to help them and make them happy, at the same time I want to make myself happy and at the end of the day that’s what I want the most. I will almost always be fair and just and I hope to strive in that. I have had many changes in my life choices. I am quite set on being a makeup artist although who knows. I don’t want to wake up in my mid 30s and realize I hate my life because I was forced to choose my career in my teens. I want people to know that it’s okay if you’re not sure even when you’re 25 its okay to not know as long as you’re looking and you’re not a drug addict or something crazy.
When I was little, my mother spoke almost all Swedish with me; my father on the other hand didn't speak it at all so I spoke two languages as a small child. I still can but don’t often speak Swedish. I have had trouble with English and had a lisp early on in elementary school because of learning two langue’s’ at the same time. I’ve gotten better and don’t have a lisp any longer but I still struggle to this day to spell and write. I haven’t really enjoyed reading like many of my friends have before in the past. I never read Harry Hotter or anything like that. I seemed dumb to a lot of my peers. I never really read books because of the vocabulary and the emotional attachment I had to them. I’ve learned to love writing and I do it all the time every day. I’m still working on my grammar but I actually am finding it fun and interesting. I think as I’ve started to write more I’ve started to enjoy every aspect of it and strive to do better. Luckily I have very creative friends that I look up to. Math hasn't been my best subject. I don’t like numbers and I feel no connection with it like I do to writing. I think that is the case with a lot of people and I’m glad because math is quite miserable to be honest. I can get around when it comes to algebra and pre calculus maybe, but otherwise don’t ask me to help you with your crazy 5 page long math questions. I love to listen and I rarely talk in class. I try to show respect to others while they’re speaking like I would like them too show me. I have a fear of speaking in front of a large group of people. I tend to get very nervous but I can get around and still be organized and communicate my ideas. I find that history isn’t as interesting as current events. I’ve learned a lot about politics and now find it valuable considering that it affects me and my loved ones. I understand how laws work and how important understanding the way the law works in the U.S. I don’t eat healthy and I don’t exercise. I’m usually under weight and I don’t drink enough water. I have been told countless times by ACLC and many other programs since I was a baby to eat well and get outside. I made a choice though. I do walk a lot and stretch but no hard core anything. I do praise the school for teaching me though; Thank you school. I have been an artist ever since I could hold a paint brush. Although, I never really became as interested in it until early high school; I just did terrible doodles until I took Art in school. I feel as though art is a big part in my life. It’s all thanks to my grandfather who was a very successful artist and an amazing one. Science has been an important thing in my life. I think that it’s amazing how things work and I’m very interested in them. Although it involves math so all thoughts of becoming something science related gets thrown. Anyway, I think I have a wonderful understanding of science and the way that the world works.
I would consider myself eager to learn new things and thrive. I constantly look for new stimuli and things to learn. I also have a very creative brain; I think I use my imagination a lot and I wouldn’t say it helps me to do every day things but it seems to help me out when I’m bored or I need to draw for a class. I haven’t made the best choices in life so far. I have gotten in trouble for some serious things in my life. I have made a lot of terrible mistakes but I’ve learned from them and I think now I am a better person. I think that I can make a good decision and have better skills to determine what the best decision is. I understand I have room for improvement. I don’t like problems at all; I tend to want to fix everything. I try not to try and take everything so personally but I want to make things better all the time. I have a lot of empathy and have no problem working out problems with loved ones. But sometimes the hardest things to say are the most important. I like to add data and graphs to my work mostly because I learn visually and it seems to be much easier. I use logic all the time to solve problems. I have to go step by step to solve things and learn when using logic. I think that sometimes my logic can and will be swayed by emotion but I think my logic will keep myself in check.
I think I work very hard in group projects. I have never slacked off in a group project or activity. I have almost always taken leader role if there wasn’t some one that I trusted or had an ever stronger will to be leader which happens rarely. I try hard to make sure everyone understands things that I say and want from them. I like to help people understand most of the time. I have a good attitude with people and will assert myself when needed. I will once again do anything I can to help others in my group if needed. I defiantly find myself trying to motivate others, although hard it’s doable. People have said I have a silver tongue, meaning I’m good at talking people into things or out of things. I can persuade people to do as I want occasionally. I seem to not work very well with people that are very different than me. I seem to push them too hard or try and involve them too much. I have worked with the disabled before because I’m very patient with people and put that skill to use.
I use technology every day all the time. I use the ACLC computers rarely because they suck, but I’m always on the internet. Of course I’ll go on to the school computers if needed just once again rather not. I will always use computers and phones to do my homework or to communicate. No other option these days.